Little One Doesn't Like to Sit Still!

Well I am now 18 weeks pregnant and I really wanted to write another update before we find out the gender! I really wanted to write a little update on this pregnancy every other week but I'll be lucky if I can pull it off every month! I'll do my best to keep documenting because I know I'll be kicking myself later if I don't!

Baby is moving around like crazy! I was 16 weeks when I first started to feel some movement. It was really light and I wasn't sure if it was me or not. Then on Sunday during Sacrament meeting baby went crazy with little kicks and I knew it was the baby! The kicks went on for the whole hour off an on. Baby must've been really feeling the spirit. (That or it didn't like the tight waistband of my skirt. It always seems to kick against tight clothing!) It was a really cool experience though. Now I'm just waiting for Dallin to get a chance to feel the little kicks. Now at 18 weeks the movements and kicking has definitely gotten stronger and I can see them move my stomach from the outside!

I'm still waiting to get that kick of energy everyone talks about coming back after the first trimester. Lately I am so exhausted all the time. If I do anything I am completely out of breath. I'm sure if I was in shape before I got pregnant this would be easier but it's draining me now! Getting ready for bed feeling like a workout let alone cleaning the house. I really wanted to be really good and workout 5 days a week while I was pregnant but you can guess how well that's working out for me... I want to be better though!

I've also noticed pregnancy hormones kicking in and affecting my emotions lately! A couple days ago we were headed into Burley and I really wanted two things: a Taco Bandito burrito and shaved ice. It was the fourth of July so of course everything was closed! When I found out I couldn't have those two things I felt like the world was ending. It was quite the episode. We are talking full blown sobs and crocodile tears. It was awful. Poor Dallin. We laugh about it now but it was seriously a rough night. Lately it just seems like the tears are always on the brink. If anything goes wrong at all, down they fall. Dallin is a trooper to deal with me so patiently.

My bump is really growing! It's been so fun to see it grow the past month.

Now that I can feel a little life inside me, this whole experience seems so much more real. It's hard to believe that all our prayers were answered and we have a little one on its way to our family. I feel extremely blessed. I've been waiting my whole life to become a mother. I truly feel as though it is my calling in life and I'm in awe that it's finally coming to pass.

Although I'm scared to death at times of the future I know that this is worth it and I can't wait to meet our baby. Soon we go see the ultrasound and I am so excited to find out the gender and see our baby on the monitor! Things are getting REAL and we are thrilled!

First Trimester Update

Written about a month ago but just now posting because I forgot to hit publish. The pregnancy brain is real, so very very real!

First trimester is officially over and I can't believe it! The last couple months have definitely been harder than I thought it would be but I made it and am finally seeing a light at the end of the tunnel.

Around week sick I began getting really nauseous. It was the worst in the mornings and evenings but sometimes it was just all day. Nothing really helped it get better. I felt handicapped since doing anything besides sitting or laying down usually made it worse! This lasted for what felt like the longest time.

All I wanted to eat was cold cereal. You know, the really sugary kind. Extremely healthy. Mostly I had many many food aversions rather than cravings however, around week 8 I started having random cravings for certain foods. There was one day that I felt super nauseous but all I wanted was a bowl of mashed potatoes. Unfortunately we no longer had any of the quick fix instant kind so I was left laying on the couch NEEDING mashed potatoes. I didn't really feel up to making homemade potatoes but I didn't think I would make it if I didn't get mashed potatoes in my belly that instant. So, I braced for nausea and made the best mashed potatoes I had ever eaten. I had never wanted any food more in my life than I wanted those potatoes that afternoon. One food that I absolutely hated, and still struggle with, is eggs. Particularly scrambled eggs. I couldn't stand the smell or even looking at them. I thought I could sit across the table and eat my cereal while Dallin had his scrambled eggs... NOPE! We haven't had scrambled eggs for a long time in our house.

Things have definitely gotten better though. I am starting to get some of my energy back and the nausea, which refuses to leave completely, has faded some. The past couple weeks I've really noticed how sore I am. My body just aches particularly in my abdomen, back and legs. I think I must be growing to be so sore! Every day it feels like I just completed a long workout.

But enough about me! I'm 14 weeks and that makes baby the size of a peach according to my pregnancy app! About 3.5 inches, I cant believe it. Its crazy to think of how much baby has grown since we found out about its existence, At that time it was only the size of a poppy-seed! Its been very exciting to read about how baby is developing each week and see how it grows. At my last doctors appointment at 11 weeks we got to hear the heartbeat. I think hearing that fast beat made this pregnancy very real. It was proof that there is a living growing human being inside of me.

I feel incredibly blessed to be able to carry a little baby and help it grow. Pregnancy has been a whirlwind of emotions. Most of the time I feel so excited to meet and care for our little baby but some days I wonder what I've gotten myself into. Some days I doubt that I am ready for this big change. It's scary to think about the responsibility that is coming our way, but I know that we can do it. At the end of the day, I feel at peace and simply excited for our little boy or girl to come into our lives. I've been waiting for this my whole life.